Not Just A Celestial Being

I always found it interesting when people thought of God as a celestial being. I understood where they came from because for some people God never "revealed himself" to them or they never really had a relationship with God.

This past week was really rough on me because I was starting to get super homesick, missing my friends back home, and getting down because I don't have anyone here that is my age. Plus, walking around NYC by yourself knowing you're not going to meet anyone at any point throughout the day is quite upsetting and somewhat depressing. For a few nights I would cry myself to sleep and cry out to the Lord in desperation. " Lord, what the heck?  I'm out here, all by myself with no friends and i only have little kids, a dog, and 2 older adults to talk to.  I realize you have a plan, but some friends would be nice. Thanks!"   Thursday I even broke down with the mom and cried on her shoulder as I apologized for seeming like I didn't want to be here and locking myself in my room the past few nights. It was quite dramatic and I reminded myself of her two year old daughter ( i swear we're a lot alike) 

So Friday rolled around and we were going to a toddlers dance class (if you've never been to one, I HIGHLY suggest you attend because its hysterical to watch kids run around in little tutus.) and I met this young girl who said she was a nanny as well. I swear, my heart almost stop beating because i was so happy to meet someone my age, who works with kids as well. We exchanged numbers and later we met up with some of her friends, who are also nannies. It was so refreshing to be around people my age and just go out dancing.

Today I met up with a friend of the family who lives in NYC and we had brunch for an hour an a half. I left the city feeling so good about having met another person my age and having someone else to talk to.

SO... what does this all have to do with God??  Well, dear friends I realized (actually I re-realized) how much God loves me. I was sitting around crying my eyes out about needing friends, and not even a week later I make 4. It's like God just knows how much our hearts break and He reaches out to bless us, no expectation of anything in return. I think of a really great parent who loves their kid so much that they'll do anything to stop their kid from hurting.  It breaks their heart so much to see their kid in pain or misery so they go to lengths to show them how much they love them and want them to be okay. That's how God is. He loves us so much that He will go to any length to help us out and show us that He loves us.

God may not be evident to you or He may not seem real to you, but I promise you that He loves you more than you could ever imagine and is looking out for you and wants to cover you with the biggest blanket of love and protection. Sometimes, crappy things happen in our life, but I know that when the good things happen, it's God just reassuring us that He's still right there by our sides.  In the movie "Where the Heart Is" Natalie Portman says "You tell them that our lives can change with every breath we take... and tell 'em to hold on like hell to what they've got: each other, and a mother who would die for them and almost did... You tell them we've all got meanness in us, but we've got goodness too. And the only thing worth living for is the good. And that's why we've got to make sure we pass it on."  

I pray that you hold on to the good inside of you and around you. When someone smiles at you, pays you a compliment, or does something nice for you-hold onto those moments. Life is going to give you moments that are going to suck but holding onto the good and the knowledge that God is out there protecting you and loving you, that my friends will get you through life.  I promise that God is not just a celestial being, but a Father that stands right next to you and desires to spend time with you, love you, talk with you, walk with you, and have a deep relationship with you.

Blessings!